haha, it's been weeks since i've updated. busy busy, you know. opening night's in three weeks, i'm so excited! there really isn't much else to say. i'm discovering ridiculous amounts of new music too, so expect some music themed posts. and uh, that's it.

anyone on my flist is welcome to hit me up on my twitter (http://twitter.com/thisheavyheart) or my myspace, which is in my userinfo. just let me know who you are when you request me :)

this is seriously the most stressful time of the year and in all of ever, apparently, cos i'm having trouble sleeping lately. i have a regent and four midterms, plus the final project for acting and oodles of lines to memorize for the show, and my mom's been super naggy about me helping out around the house cos 'this is a family.' add voice lessons and homework almost every night on top of that, it's just getting to be too much.

in other news, i got a new board! google is failing me for a photo, but it's an atomic triarc with this sick clockwork orange graphic. i also got a new pair or burtons, thank god, those rentals were killing me.

nothing else, really. been super busy. oh, and apparently i'm a baritone? so i get to sing some tenor parts for the music we're doing now, thank god.

enough of this rambling, that's the end of my pointless update.

...i just got rickroll'd.

otherwise, this is just a boring useless update. memorizing lines, voice lessons, practice, snowboarding on sundays, school, homework, then rinse and repeat. i'll let you know when something happens.

i passed my permit test! (yay), and just my luck, it starts to freaking blizzard. anyways, we went to buffalo and east aurora today for shopping, i didn't get anything. tomorrow i'm going to allayna's house for a party, then sunday is swain. cast list got posted, i got harry beaton on thursday and archie beaton on friday, saturday and sunday, pretty cool and a lot more than i hoped for. there's really not much else going on, going to catch up on this season of top chef right now.

i'm pretty sure this post is devoted entirely to showing off my new icon (one of many) and layout, which i'm kind of proud of. today i played video games, yeah, cool i know. i got too much shit to name for christmas, but the highlights are; rockband, a new printer/scanner/copier, new shelves cos my room is ridiculously lacking storage, a coffee maker, WotLK, a bunch of movies and games, and like, 50$ in gift cards. proper list later? maybe.

i kind of miss everyone, which is surprising cos of how antisocial i am this year. i'm going to allayna's on the fourth, and swain is on the fifth (:D) and i dunno what i'm doing for new year's, or if i'm doing anything, and i'm supposed to go to courtney's next week. 'sides that, i've got nothing.

i should probably finish this up, since it's 2am and i can't be assed to type anything interesting. oh!, i'm writing a book. that's it.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS, FLIST.


Going to open presents now :)

it's -504560 degrees in here, i'm not competent, and pete wentz is really fucking short. HAHA.

I love how, on weekends, I sit in front of the computer all day long.

I have my audition song figured out, not sure if I already posted it, but I'm singing 'Almost Like Being In Love'. My audition isn't until the 18th, but I want to nail it this year.

I like Folie A Deux. I like how grown up, and I like how the band is trying new things, not just following the formula they've used in the past. I also like the guitar work, mostly because of how subtle some of it is, and Patrick's range is really well displayed.

/geek

Back to business; uhh, I dunno. Release the Bats should be here any day soon, as soon as that comes in I'm going over to Courtney's to watch it.

That's it. Peace.

it's still winter. yeah.

we're getting a christmas tree today, which will (hopefully) go well. i kinda wish that things would slow down... i mean, auditions are in like, a week and a half, and then the show starts after that.... it's exciting though.

i'm also kind of missing the old thing i used to do. i love the people i've met in the past year and a half, and how close i've grown to them, but it feels like trading in friends. like, they're all going to end up the same, so why even bother.

i dunno.

i STILL don't update enough.

it's been really cold lately. i believe we're getting a christmas tree tomorrow, which is a sign of good times to come. i'm failing math, but (hopefully) i did really well on the test i took today. the show this year is Brigadoon, i'm singing "Almost Like Being In Love" for my audition. really, all in all, i just wish i could feel my nose. damn you upstate winters.

HAPPY ELECTION DAY YEAH.



so i'm figuring that, if i ignore every other distraction today, including food, i'll pass this quarter with decent grades. i have an essay, three assignments in history, two in english, two labs for chem, and a chem review sheet. COOL.

i really just don't want second quarter to suck because i got lazy first quarter, which very well could still happen. i was freaking out about it a LOT yesterday, but i'm okay now.

except when mrs. burke argues with me when i tell her that i can't do EVERYTHING for the next issue cos HI, i'm already juggling a job, school, and being an editor. no one else helps with anything besides articles, and she doesn't seem to get that in first period, while i'm making the paper itself, meagan and jon are doing homework. maybe i could do homework if i didn't get left with so many damn responsibilities.

okay, i'm done now. GO VOTE :D

I'm getting sick, i'm pretty sure. My throat's hurting pretty bad, and it'll probably get worse. I don't care, as long as i'm better for homecoming, but damn, I REALLY don't want to lose my voice. i'm getting into singing a lot more this year and losing my voice would just fuck up everything that I got going on.

Anyways, I has a bunch of articles to write this weekend, and CAKE is next Sunday :D

Oh, apparently sugar doesn't make you hyper...

I srsly need to update moar.


Nothing's happening. I'm starting my edumaction again on wednesday, going to PA next saturday, and that's baaaasically it.


Now i'm tired.

I don't update enough.

But fr srs, summer's getting to me. I'm really becoming unhappy about everything that's going on, even though things are going great. I'm just not sure what to do, I guess, and it hasn't been what I hoped for.

Well, whatever. There's a crazy thunderstorm going on, and there's no rain, and it's really loud. That's about it.

I am tired. This is fact.

I have absolutely nothing to do until Sunday, and I think I'm absolutely content with this. I've been so busy between parties and tests and blah that I'm welcoming a few days to just chill out.

And besides that, nothing new. I think I might do some painting tomorrow, just cos.

ALSO: THERE IS FRIED DOUGH. CARNIVAL = LOVE, especially when I can have someone bring said fried dough to me :)

I should be freaking out about this test, but I'm not. I think I've reached the place where I'll either pass it or not, same with the class.

I've kinda got it figured out that things will happen or they won't, and regardless of how much I fret and worry, things can work out fine. So I'm done stressing about girls, and tests, and grades, and my family.

Plans today? Finishing studying, and doing those damned quizzes, then packing and going home. I've got my test tomorrow first thing. Thursday is Liz's party, Sunday is the show at the Brew Haus, and the carnival somewhere in between.

I really don't want break to end, and I don't want to wake up early tomorrow, and I don't want to deal with people's bullshit in school. I feel like shit today, my stomach hurts for some reason, and all I want to do is lay around watching movies. Add on that it feels like I have a million things to do, and no time to do them, and it completely ruins the day.

I don't know, I've kinda given up on trying with people: they can make the effort, I'm done.

Fuuuuuck this, I'm going to watch a movie.

Wahhhhh, I need money, because Prom is so damn expensive, and I want money for the Panic show and Warped and etc. And I have no clue when I'm getting my tux, or when prom actually is because yay, I'm out of the loop.

And I'm all wtf about stuff that I don't want to talk about because it's like, WTF.


I wish iTunes would un-die :(

Ughhhh, it's thursday, no school tomorrow, but I have practice and shin splints, I think. Sunday is Easter, Allayna and Kevin might be coming over. I've been barely awake all week, and my ankle is killing me.



Funny story though: today during global, Mr. L came into the room and led me to my locker. Apparently, the partition between mine and Emily Troup's locker broke, and I had so much shit in there that it was pushing the partition into her locker and leaving her no space. I have yet to check if it's fixed, but I had to throw so much shit of mine out, stuff I didn't even know that I had. I felt bad too, because Emily had absolutely no room.